Totally oblivious. :x

Insensitive

Racism.

An essay.

I proudly could say, I had lots of exposure in this. Then I had a huge thinking. Is race a valid way to classify people? It might sound grave. I know every one of us already made discrimination. (Haha totoo naman.) But its quite different if it involves race. I mean, being judged not by your character or faults at all.

I really hate it when customers starting to ask where are you located. Depending on the mood, i tried stating im from different country -with articulation. To prevent hang up's. But syempre, i mostly say philippines. (Who wouldn't be proud. Talented kaya mga pinoy.) Some suspend, and there were some who appreciates. (That they understand me, though.)

I would just like to justify, how to prohibit these acts. Not for them to do or follow but for me to interdict criticism. I think it cool. Eventually, we all have distinctive characteristics which determine cultures. And I suppose it's what them, (others) use to think. That their own race is superior and that they have the power to rule or dominate others.

Now, what can we do. We can never disallow but instead of butting against. Maybe, a little less thinking about the feeling of others might be in. We can never afford to hurt or affront others, the same as you think that you deserve.

I literally think how racism cause hatred.

Kaya instead of waiving their late fees, I'd be more deficient in making them aggravated. Bwahaha.

No, Seriously, Instead of those people planking in to upfront denouncing ...uh? something like the governments budget for their education. C'mon, I mean.. It was none of their business. Why would held mass planking. Hahahahaha Superb. It was none of my intention to hurt the believers. And since i was a previous support, All i can say is.. I... sympathize. :D

Hala ano na ba tong topic ko, xD I guess it was more fun to write something about people who think they were extremely knowledgeable. To the mere fact that, they were able to mess braces to strike whatsoever in reference to their almighty grievances.

Is it helpful? Do they cause any welfare. I bet it's all locked tight chaos. << from mama. xD

They were just precising great disorder and confusion. It's not that I was on the political or government side. Let's say I was not liking the point of their routine. I am also a student. But not contradicting the results of deliberation. In short. Show respect. Still they (people who analyze) exert effort to end up in a good colloquy. Malamang! It's their job. Eh kung tinatapos nlang ba ang course at simulan palitan sila. Rrright?

Another whereabouts, Government is never a charity. Ano? PCSO? Just like how customers would like us to treat them when they reached hardship. People where trying to be so clever,

Try to invent something new. Why do one thing when you'll scoot or run away in the end. You'll try to make expensive purchases then wants to make low payment. Wth.

Going back. I don't have any against free will. Or expressing freedom of oneself? Nah, do it your way. Disregarding how you create abomination. Especially about the thing wherein you lie down facing the floor. If its your great jubilee, . I salute you :D

No title at all.

Remember when you were young and for some reason, the only thing you liked back then was forbidden, such as eating candies all day. When the only reason you were hurt is because you tripped and fall. When the only scar you have were literally on both of your toes.

Disclaimer.

What if you were still with somebody back track and you already had the capability to think or react the same way as you did on present. Grabe, looking way back beyond. You knew your still not perfect but had the idea how you grow pretty enough. I'll try to encapsulate atleast one of those. Soon.

Having the feel over courage, robert. I get these roulade. Very inspiring.

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He saw a lonely girl.

She saw a lonely world.

It was a canvas,

slyly careless.

A florestan lieder.

*Robert Schumann was intensely concentrated on his work as a pianist and composer at an early age. He became engaged to Ernestine Von Fricken, but it was his mistress Clara, that became his inspiration for his songs. He saw a lonely girl, she saw a lonely world. Both Robert and Clara were musicians.

However they became "slyly careless" when Robert and Clara were discovered kissing.

A Florestan lieder refers to one of Robert's imaginary characters that he uses in one of his literary criticisms. Florestan parallels Robert's passion character.

And his was a dying breed.

Courage came only from his symphonies.

A decorative smile to fade out.

His concerto in A

*And his was a dying breed, pianists and composers were not recognized and given merit in the 1800's. Naturally, his courage came from his symphonies. At one point he wrote 168 songs within a year, all which pertained to his emotions to Clara. His courage was also drawn from his composing,since Robert's right hand was permanentely injured. Some say it was due to the medication he took for syphillis, or the operation he performed on himself.

Come on. A second chance at love.

The moments dead. Make you feel like it's never staying.

*Robert put his engagement to Ernestine on hault, and decided to marry Clara. A second chance at love, since Clara at first had to dettatch herself from Schumann, since her father found out about them.

Made love to a baby grand.

A tempest refined inside his hands.

He had one girl, and one song.

Bone fide wine and roulade.

*Robert was intensley and whole-heartedly in love with his music. A tempest, of course refers to a storm. He was so passionate he was seen as making love to a baby grand. A refined tempest, a refined storm. His one girl was Clara, his wife.

But he had to give it up. His heart was raw.

But his fingers numb. His first words were his last words.

An aesthete since first sun.

*An aesthete since first sun, Schumann's music was highly viewed as with the nature of Rommanticism. An aesthete of course, sees beauty in art. And Romanticism was a revolt against the Englightenment period. Romanticism and the aesthetic movement each stressed nature and emotion.

Come on. A second chance at love.

The moments slept. Make you feel like it's never staying. It burned.

The first attempt or two. But I remembered you. I need that moment back.

Please don't, don't don't. A tremor for death. Ivories that sliced sedatives in half. Releif in the Rhine.

Washed away regrets.

And let him char before he carressed the ground.

*Many think that Robert began to go crazy within his last years of life. Relief in the Rhine refers to the fact that Robert tried to kill himself by throwing himself into the Rhine. He was helped by a woman, but was quickly admitted into a mental institute. He was believed to have suffered of mercury poisining, from his syphillis medication (sliced sedatives).

Dear artist you will rise again.

A last arabesque in faint fashion.

*An arabesque is a pose in ballet, where the dancer is standing on one tip-toe. A last stance, as one would say, in faint fashion being Robert's style of music.

Come on. A second change at love.

The moments dead. Make you feel like it's never ending. It burned.

The first attempt or two. But I remembered you. I need that moment back.

Please don't forget.

*After Schumann's death his wife continually visited his works and interepreted and edited many of his songs. He woke. A final view of blue. Dear cordias.

Wet rouge. Relieve romance to graves.

Please, please don't forget.

There's this guy, &&he's kinda had my heart.

IT WAS NEVER REALLY MY PLAN !! to write something about my man. I should have started writing about my overnight trip to rizal with pj to visit my lovely grannnpany. Papang and Auntie.

But then., I was realizing, (for all ya know i never really had a good eyesight.) And even if the path that you're walking is REALLY blurry, keep walking. You'll focus in when you know you want or need. Then soon these pictures in yer life will become little..then better, be crystal clear. Just don't ever give up. Now, applications.. I never realized i'd met someone you thought you never needed. What i'm totally blessed is that i can get extremely (seriously) happy and contented on what we're simply doing cause the existing importance you'll know and want is his presence. I don't know. But i guess i started to live the life i imagined. <3

So eto na nga, I know at ol times i'm clearly lacking maturity. -er, i meant. Naive. But instead of changing who i really am, Im glad i can perfectly show what i feel, yun bang, i can say, i have never disguised my real feelings. I can say where i want to go, what i want to eat. Without me leaving the idea na baka "kung anong isipin neto" or whatsoever.

In other words. I finally had the feeling of being comfort. ANYWHERE.

Literally speaking, a guy who's more than willing to give what he can. Who's trying to make you feel what you deserve to have as a woman. Who's effort that will exceed your highest expectation. (I don't think im that able to elaborate what he is. Super kulang.)

Even if i had to bear what other species had to think. Haha (Ibang topic!!!)... Sinetchiwa kaya itez na trulili mkpng chorva ever. Wiz nman ma-sey alonzo kasi b.i ang lolo mo. Hayy.. Nkaka lurkey :((

ANYWAY..

I love him now. And no one else matters. Well infact those who are close to me are so accepting him in an early stage so far. Important is crucial. In tagalog: Ang importante, mahalaga. :)

But then, let's see what happen. I wanna quit spilling words from my head. I never did this very long time. He's not a mistake though. Just wanna make sure first. Lots had what was meant to fall with but not to be with. But I pretty sure i'm never letting go. I'm glued and ol' stucked.

So to you, I just wanna let you know how I much wish for you. Everytime. <3

XOXO